the Ehh.. time

Our relationship is Golden. Solid . Natural. Effortless and Unconditional.

However, it's funny how I get sometimes. I am not much of a clingy-type girlfriend because I a lot of other things to be worrying about BUT ... I hate being ignored.

Don't talk to me if you aren't engaging

Don't text me just to answer a questions or b/c you have to

Just don't bother.


I can get sour real fast if times like this occur more often. I may even lose interest in you. Yes it's been a long time but if you don't try to keep the excitement going then all will end and we'll both stop trying.

*in a pissy mood*

I miss him

Is it so horrible to say that I am completely and insanely IN LOVE WITH THIS GUY?

I'm sure he's fine, I'm sure he isn't out doing things i don't like, I'm sure he still loves me back and I'm sure we'll be just fine after this.

BUT WHERE THE FREAK ARE YOU!?

Maybe your having a deep convo with your family, maybe you dropped your phone in the toilet bowl, maybe you smashed your phone in the wall or maybe you simply fell asleep.

I feel like I'm going crazy not being in contact with you. It's 11:48pm and the last time i heard from you it was at 9:46pm while I was at the gym. I need to hear you voice. I need to hear that your okay. I need to hear you call me "baby" before I lay myself to sleep.

At the end of the day, when all work is done, all traffic has be passed, all the dishes has been washed, all the house chores has been done .. I don't end it completely exhausted at all. At the end of the day all I look forward to is hearing or seeing you. All I look forward to is receiving my reward of having such a great guy in my life.

All I look forward too is You, Max Kabin.

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LDR- Long Distance Relationship

One thing I can say about being with someone is that constant feeling or feeling(s) of that person. Whether its being in constant physical contact with the special guy/gal to even thinking about him/her 24 hours a day 7 days a week. One thing that is hard to do separate yourself from the one person that brings out the inner most beautiful in you through distance.

Just recently, I finished the semester of school and was 'forced' to move back in with my parents 50 miles away from my beloved sweetheart. Although, it may not seem like a LDR it feels like it is for me. Prior to summer and the move, we used to chill everyday after work and school. It was honestly, your place or mine. Either way, we made it a routine to see each other after a long days work. We looked at our chill time as reward for a hard days work. Every single day .... we were inseparable.

Now, I'm on the other side of highway with stricter parents to enforce a strict lock-up situation for Operation Marielle's Lame Summer Vacation. I miss him so so so so much. And as much as I don't want to be smothering with cute text messages and hours on the phone at night i contain myself. The last thing I would want is to drive you crazy with my neediness.

NOTE: One of the hardest things that i HATE about LDR is that when there's a fight, a misunderstanding, a worry in each of us ... it's that much harder, further and easier to walk away from it and never express/show how much it really and truly hurts.

I hate being mad at him and when or if i am slightly we are always able to quickly resolve things by simply seeing each other in the flesh and talking to one another. Now, that we're not just down the street anymore ... what to do?

This is the point in every LDR or relationship, where your past the giddy/sprung stage and at the level where you have to work really hard day/night just keep and maintain the relationship.

Props to all those who are at this level and still fighting, to all those who are beyond this level and for all the LDR that have to travel even further to be with one another.

Support the ones you love

This past Friday was my Bachelor's of Science General Business with Entrepreneurship Graduation and my darling Max was the only one to remember to bring me flowers. Not only was he thoughtful be he included an additional thoughtfullness into my flowers by manually hand-wrapping them himself (& with the help of his dear moma)

Max is such a great inspiration to me. During finals week he was very careful not to pick fights with me, be understanding when I can be unreasonable and massage me when I got super stressed. Thanks for always being there and supporting me in all my endeavors.

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This short video is a GREAT way of re-evaluating where you are in a relationship. It will give you a better insight into why ups and downfalls of a relationship. Watch this video and see how much you will understand about your significant other.

Happy Easter

First Easter dinner with HIS Family.

Formal meals when much of the family tradition is spent in the kitchen is and always be an important event that you much approach properly. In every aspect they will be examining you on how you carry yourself with the family, how you act in the house and if you will let your guard down.

1. Posture!
Always have an excited and helpful spirit in all that you do. When your in the presence of your man's family always sit-up straight and always "offer" to do something.

2. Insist on helping!
You are a special guest to their son and if they are the one preparing all day for their family traditional meal than, the least you could do is offer ... NO INSIST on giving a helping hand. Like my mom, and many others, they tell you to go about your business and let them handle things in the kitchen. THIS IS A TRICK! Only if she returns the insisting behavior with a higher tone do you back down and step out the kitchen.

3. Bring something to share!
If you can't get your point across and help in the kitchen then have a back-up plan. Bring something you know the whole family can enjoy that will add to the dinner or something that they are missing. Don't just take the free meal & dip .. please.

4. Bon appetite! ..not so fast!
When it's time to eat. Don't be the first to take their seat. Help set up the table and arrange the table for the various dishes. Eat at the same pace as the people around (excluding your Boyfriend, b/c my bf eats like vacuum).

5. Smile with a Compliment!
Everyone loves receiving compliment. Figure out which of the dishes the mother labor the hardest for or was the most worried about for you liking AND COMPLIMENT it like crazy. Mention anything and everything you can. "this is amazing .." "how did you make this?" "o0oo what's that?"

6. Engage in conversation!
Don't just sit there and eat fattie. TALK! It's important to talk and converse with your potential family-in-law. If they bring up anything about a topic make sure to say SOMETHING about it. In my case, the dad was a advent "Seinfeld" watcher. I was quick to say "... NO SOUP FOR YOU!!"

7. Clean-up
Make sure to clean your own plate and TRY your hardest to start washing dishes. Even if you are not successful in washing all the dishes it is still better that someone sees you putting in the initiative to be apart of the family and clean up.

The fact of the matter is... this dinner is absolutely NOT about the food. It is an informal behavioral interview with his parents regarding your mannerisms and home traditions. Follow these steps and always be in your best behavior. You are not in the family just because you got their son to love you.

Tip: try ween the mother and sister to be comfortable with you. They carry and great leverage in their acceptance of you. ;)