the Ehh.. time

Our relationship is Golden. Solid . Natural. Effortless and Unconditional.

However, it's funny how I get sometimes. I am not much of a clingy-type girlfriend because I a lot of other things to be worrying about BUT ... I hate being ignored.

Don't talk to me if you aren't engaging

Don't text me just to answer a questions or b/c you have to

Just don't bother.


I can get sour real fast if times like this occur more often. I may even lose interest in you. Yes it's been a long time but if you don't try to keep the excitement going then all will end and we'll both stop trying.

*in a pissy mood*

I miss him

Is it so horrible to say that I am completely and insanely IN LOVE WITH THIS GUY?

I'm sure he's fine, I'm sure he isn't out doing things i don't like, I'm sure he still loves me back and I'm sure we'll be just fine after this.

BUT WHERE THE FREAK ARE YOU!?

Maybe your having a deep convo with your family, maybe you dropped your phone in the toilet bowl, maybe you smashed your phone in the wall or maybe you simply fell asleep.

I feel like I'm going crazy not being in contact with you. It's 11:48pm and the last time i heard from you it was at 9:46pm while I was at the gym. I need to hear you voice. I need to hear that your okay. I need to hear you call me "baby" before I lay myself to sleep.

At the end of the day, when all work is done, all traffic has be passed, all the dishes has been washed, all the house chores has been done .. I don't end it completely exhausted at all. At the end of the day all I look forward to is hearing or seeing you. All I look forward to is receiving my reward of having such a great guy in my life.

All I look forward too is You, Max Kabin.

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LDR- Long Distance Relationship

One thing I can say about being with someone is that constant feeling or feeling(s) of that person. Whether its being in constant physical contact with the special guy/gal to even thinking about him/her 24 hours a day 7 days a week. One thing that is hard to do separate yourself from the one person that brings out the inner most beautiful in you through distance.

Just recently, I finished the semester of school and was 'forced' to move back in with my parents 50 miles away from my beloved sweetheart. Although, it may not seem like a LDR it feels like it is for me. Prior to summer and the move, we used to chill everyday after work and school. It was honestly, your place or mine. Either way, we made it a routine to see each other after a long days work. We looked at our chill time as reward for a hard days work. Every single day .... we were inseparable.

Now, I'm on the other side of highway with stricter parents to enforce a strict lock-up situation for Operation Marielle's Lame Summer Vacation. I miss him so so so so much. And as much as I don't want to be smothering with cute text messages and hours on the phone at night i contain myself. The last thing I would want is to drive you crazy with my neediness.

NOTE: One of the hardest things that i HATE about LDR is that when there's a fight, a misunderstanding, a worry in each of us ... it's that much harder, further and easier to walk away from it and never express/show how much it really and truly hurts.

I hate being mad at him and when or if i am slightly we are always able to quickly resolve things by simply seeing each other in the flesh and talking to one another. Now, that we're not just down the street anymore ... what to do?

This is the point in every LDR or relationship, where your past the giddy/sprung stage and at the level where you have to work really hard day/night just keep and maintain the relationship.

Props to all those who are at this level and still fighting, to all those who are beyond this level and for all the LDR that have to travel even further to be with one another.

Support the ones you love

This past Friday was my Bachelor's of Science General Business with Entrepreneurship Graduation and my darling Max was the only one to remember to bring me flowers. Not only was he thoughtful be he included an additional thoughtfullness into my flowers by manually hand-wrapping them himself (& with the help of his dear moma)

Max is such a great inspiration to me. During finals week he was very careful not to pick fights with me, be understanding when I can be unreasonable and massage me when I got super stressed. Thanks for always being there and supporting me in all my endeavors.

The stage of a a relationship

This short video is a GREAT way of re-evaluating where you are in a relationship. It will give you a better insight into why ups and downfalls of a relationship. Watch this video and see how much you will understand about your significant other.

Happy Easter

First Easter dinner with HIS Family.

Formal meals when much of the family tradition is spent in the kitchen is and always be an important event that you much approach properly. In every aspect they will be examining you on how you carry yourself with the family, how you act in the house and if you will let your guard down.

1. Posture!
Always have an excited and helpful spirit in all that you do. When your in the presence of your man's family always sit-up straight and always "offer" to do something.

2. Insist on helping!
You are a special guest to their son and if they are the one preparing all day for their family traditional meal than, the least you could do is offer ... NO INSIST on giving a helping hand. Like my mom, and many others, they tell you to go about your business and let them handle things in the kitchen. THIS IS A TRICK! Only if she returns the insisting behavior with a higher tone do you back down and step out the kitchen.

3. Bring something to share!
If you can't get your point across and help in the kitchen then have a back-up plan. Bring something you know the whole family can enjoy that will add to the dinner or something that they are missing. Don't just take the free meal & dip .. please.

4. Bon appetite! ..not so fast!
When it's time to eat. Don't be the first to take their seat. Help set up the table and arrange the table for the various dishes. Eat at the same pace as the people around (excluding your Boyfriend, b/c my bf eats like vacuum).

5. Smile with a Compliment!
Everyone loves receiving compliment. Figure out which of the dishes the mother labor the hardest for or was the most worried about for you liking AND COMPLIMENT it like crazy. Mention anything and everything you can. "this is amazing .." "how did you make this?" "o0oo what's that?"

6. Engage in conversation!
Don't just sit there and eat fattie. TALK! It's important to talk and converse with your potential family-in-law. If they bring up anything about a topic make sure to say SOMETHING about it. In my case, the dad was a advent "Seinfeld" watcher. I was quick to say "... NO SOUP FOR YOU!!"

7. Clean-up
Make sure to clean your own plate and TRY your hardest to start washing dishes. Even if you are not successful in washing all the dishes it is still better that someone sees you putting in the initiative to be apart of the family and clean up.

The fact of the matter is... this dinner is absolutely NOT about the food. It is an informal behavioral interview with his parents regarding your mannerisms and home traditions. Follow these steps and always be in your best behavior. You are not in the family just because you got their son to love you.

Tip: try ween the mother and sister to be comfortable with you. They carry and great leverage in their acceptance of you. ;)

Transition from the world you create and reality

As much as you wan to stay in the world of love and spend all day cuddling and spending time with each other every couple must go through separation and go back to their world of responsibilities.

Support each other in each of your efforts and responsibilities, encourage each other to strive higher and don't get jealous of one another achievements.

P.S. Here's a 5 Tips to having a Successful Relationship.

I found it to be very amusing and relevant to everyday relationship problems.

Sunday Mornings

How can it be that when I'm surrounded by your arms in bed, time will pass by so quickly. Everything around us seems to loose importance and the only care in my mind is just for me to constantly feel your warm embrace across my body. As time continues to slowly enter into the new day the world stops when I gaze at your eyes centimeters away from your face. You can never escape it, you never want to but you must pull up the courage and remember there's life outside of the sight of the person you love.

If it's real love, Love will always find it's way back to your heart if its meant to be.

After the storm

Its natural for your companion to still have doubt in the relationship after a storm or a major argument. Give them time to adjust and let things settle so the trust between you two will be built on a stronger foundation.

If you are like me, I always heard honesty is the best policy. Unfortunately, for me because of my trust issues I wasn't able to completely tell the truth the my Beloved.

PROBLEM: After 4 months of being together I finally, that Max was in this relationship for real and he was 'in it to win it'. When we started dating I held back certain events/details that I didn't feel comfortable sharing just yet. I knew at some point the entire truth had to come out but it was just a matter of when.

In my opinion, I'm not obligated to be completely share certain details or events in my past unless I feel that you can be trusted and I am comfortable. Why should I risk my secret to someone I don't completely trust yet? I know lying is bad but just because someone asks you a personal question doesn't mean you have to answer them.

In his opinion, he felt betrayed and that the whole relationship was a lie. He was truthful from the very beginning with faith in our relationship so 'I' should have too. Max was frustrated because out of no where and our romantic get-away in NYC, I ruin our 'perfect' relationship with a lie.

Although, I understand his frustration and feeling of betrayal... we are both NOT WRONG

What should have happened, was when Max asked me a personal question (or any question) I should have expressed to him my uncomfortable feelings of sharing about the topic. I should have told him that there was more to the story or that I would explain more when I felt more comfortable. I shouldn't have assumed that he was insist on demanding an explanation and it's better that you at least mention that there's more to the story.

COMMUNICATION IS KEY!!!!!!

P.S. && if you beloved partner doesn't understand that you are uncomfortable with sharing certain things about your past then you should reconsider who you dating. When dating a person, he/she will ALWAYS have a past story. Whether its bad or good it's still in the past and the past is the past. There's nothing that can be done to change it. If your partner cannot be understanding about your past and except you for YOU & what you PAST holds then, please think a little hard on the person you are about to enter a relationship with.

Spring break Confessions

SPRING BREAK with MAX in New York City.




Be honest and don't beat around the bush. A relationship that is free flowing in communication is wonderful and can lead to REAL results

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This is Applicaple to BOTH Gender =)

The inevitable FIRST Argument.

"Always tell the truth"

Never lie or sugar-coat to you partner because, in turn, you wouldn't want them to lie or sugar-coat anything to you. The person you are with is supposed to be your partner, your other half, your second brain etc. not and interrogating officer or newscaster. This is the person you can share you inner most thought, ideas and feelings too.

Our first fight was over a pack of ciggarettes. I am no smoker and I don't intend on smoking. However. there are those extremely rare occassions that I actually think that smoking will help with stress. Or that smoking makes me feel bad. HA! It just so happened on Tuesday, Max fell asleep w/o my knowledge. I was at school studying when an old friend came to visit my work station. I smelt a fragrance of smoke circulating his clothes. Disspointed find this knowledge out he hands me his brand new pack and walks out. Assumuing he was going to come back he never did and I got kicked out the library b/c they were closing. I ended up bringing the pack home in my backpack and got the sudden urge to smoke, to feel bad. I was stressed b/c Max's last text was very ambiguous and negative and when I tried to clarify all my 26 calls went straight to voicemail. I walked outside and lit the ciggarettte and took a hit. Moments later I smash it to the ground because I knew smoking was for me.

Later that night while I was studying in my room and he was just chillen, he spoted the pack of ciggarettes and asked me, "Since when did you smoke." I frankly told him it wasn't mind and said I didn't smoke any. I really didn't count lighting it up and taking one hit was smoking a whole ciggarette. He didn't believe that a smoker in these days would simply 'let you(me) take his brand new Malboro Lights and not asked for them'. I did actually ask for them back but I was already goe b/c I got kicked out the library and he never came back to pick them up. But w/o giving you a scripted back & fourth dialog of what heppend the moral of the story is this:

"when you with someone that you potentially trying to have a furture with .. BE YOURSELF. Be as truthful and honest as you can make youself with the other person. Tell him/her exactly what you want and or expect and if there's disagreements TALK about it. Do not agrue but talk about it. The clearer you make things to your partner the easier it is for them to read you"

I told Max I didn't smoke when the intention os lighting the ciggarrette was to smoke it and to 'possibly' releive stress. The conflict: I say I am not a smoker yet, im relying on the ciggarrette to relieve stress. Max is tryinf to quit and he isn't forbidding me to smoke BUT he doesn't want me to get addicted like he and his other friends did. All he asked was that I let him know. This was the conclusion after 2.3 hours. Next time, let's just stick to the honesty is the BEST policy =)

It's the thought that counts

He baked a heart-shaped Red Velvet Cake & frosted it himself, from scratch =)

The Love Story

I wasn't looking for a relationship nor was I expecting anything to happened that night but on Monday, November 29, 2010 I met him. Max Kabin.

He wasn't really my type. He was super chinky, a bit goofy and I believe he was "feeling good"/tipsy. I was planning on hanging out with my 'friend' Andy who was coming all the way from Howard County, MD to Rockville, MD. It was supposed to be just the two of us when my girl friend, Glory called to 'hang-out' with her friend, a.k.a a double-date. While Glory was trying to figure out what the night time hang out spot was, she unfortunately left her phone at home and was calling people up on my phone that night. It wasn't until after 9pm that Glory took us to the restuarant Clyde's in Rockville for their Monday night promo: "Half-off wine, $5 appetizers and half-off oysters night". The four of us sat in a booth and casually saw our mutual friends. One of the mutual friends at Clyde's that night was a another admirer Charlie. A bit awkward to find myself stuck between to people I "hanging out"with, I remained normal and went on with my business. I casually hung-out with them to try to get to know them.By surprise that night I was intriduced to Max Kabin. The guys that (or some odd reason swept me away. He's look wasn't at all the "type" I usually go for because he has a particular sleek asian cut eyes. Ironically, his eyes are usually what most girls go for.

After the night
The next day while I was at work I receiev a Facebook chat box popup on my AIM and its MAX. We start by initially doing the typically small talk and sizing each other up to see who will make the first obvious flirt moves. As the days contine we move from facebook chat to AIM (America's Instant Messaging) to long text message. When Friday comes around, I planned on meeting up with Glory at a Starbuck before heading to our friends house party. But to my surprise, Glory is accompanied by Max. After a week full of non-stop back to back long messages it was almost weird/exciting/anxious to meet the guy again in person. As I drove in they were standing outside and I hopped out of my black sport Lexus IS300 with my tall leather boots and make-up and did a little strut walk to meet them up. It was at that point MAX knew he had developed a crush on me. While we were in-line for starbucks Glory's contact fell out and ran to the bathroom. This gave me and Max some alone time to try to get to know eachother. He ended up tagging along with us at the party and volunteered to be the DD (designated driver). Throughout the night MAX was on my tail (I'm assuming) to try to make it seem like we were togther/talking. By the time we all go into our 'happy-state' Max straight up gave me a peck while we were dancing. I freaked out and went to the side. He shortly, followed and confessed his uncontrollable attraction to me and would like to get to know me better.

The comes to an end
When the party started to die down we all left to head back home. Conveniently, Glory's house was first on the highway then mine. After Glory was secured back in her house me and Max had more time to sober up and get to know each other outside of the college student scene. Becuase this the time of the year was in December it was freezing cold so I invited him inside to my living room (ONLY) to finish out interesting conversation about ... Life. We talked for severeal hours as if we were old friends ctaching up on the most recent updates. Until this day it surprises me to how open and how comfortable we were that night. We ended up passing out on the couches like innocent little children as the sun came up. It was beautifu, comfortable and all so natural.

& NOW
From that night one 3 months down the road we have been absolutely SUPERB! I cannot beleive how great it is to have him in my life. Our relationship is so natural that it feels like I don't have to try to impress him or that I have to be anyone else besides myself. This our first love story and this is where my bstory begins.

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